Also I really need to tone down my drinking. It’s actually fucked. I only drink to get blind and when I get blind I have MASSIVE memory blanks. Like I’ve actually woken up in someone’s bed and had no clue how I got there, or what we did.
On Friday I had a house party and this happened. There is a huge chunk missive from the middle. Apparently I kissed someone but I have no clue. Also some one did a massive shit in my front garden, not even conspicuously. It had toilet paper next to it and everything.
I actually have so much money at the moment and I am so proud of myself. I have been working my ass off. But I seriously can not stop my self wanting to online shop. I have SO much shit I need to get rid of. Ooops
Also there is a cute new French dude who works at my .2nd job and I have a little crush. I want him before I leave.
Blue Is The Warmest Color (2013)
So I have been told I remind someone of the girl with the blue hair. I need to see this film.
My brother arrives tomorrow, With his new girlfriend. I haven’t seen him in over 2 years. I’m still yet to meet his 4yr old son.
I’m not even excited. I’m so nervous. I know he’s going to complain about the house and be heaps protective/judgment and shit. Arghhh
My parents also arrive next weekend… 3 weeks and I’m out of here. Yeah.
I’m so scared about traveling with friends. Both of them.
I just really hope it’s not like it is here, where I get out shined by beauty and humour. I always just withdraw into myself and let them take control and I hate that. I always feel invisible and they always steal the pretty boys I want…
If love someone to ask how I am. I really should open up.
I’ve got a serious tan right now and in kinda digging my body. Despite having the shittest digestive system in the world. Argh.